regrets

alright. so there is this guy that i used to go out with but we broke up.  i dumped him and to this day i cant recall why...i do love him so very much...i have regretted it since the day i did it. lets call him A. and there will be a reaperence from an enemy...Lnz...she used to be one of my best friends...but she decided that she wanted to have a baby with my ex boyfriend...not A. but M...look back you can hear his story... but so we have not been close in a wile. so at a school football game i saw A. so manny emotions had run through my head at the moment i saw him....we had a sort of a connected and just like old times he looked at me in the eyes and i just wanted to kiss him so badly...but i could not...i didnt know how he felt...regrets are the worst...now he is with Lnz and im crushed..she knows how i feel and i just cant help but feel like i am the worst person ever...i will never forget what i did but i will have to move on...some say thats impossible others say just do what you want. but i dont want to be black carded as that kind of girl. im not like Lnz...but i do love A and whenever i see him my heart breaks a little more... my mother is no help on this. she thinks that because he is a year and a half older it is grose...she dated a guy 4 years older than her...took him to prom and had babbys with him. yea theat guy is my dad...but whatev she is a hipocrit she always has been...but yea this was a sad one insted of a mad one...it helps to vent like this...