Catch up.

Ok. my boyfriend is such a jerk. i swear! he says he doesn't care about our anniversary and that he gets to be mean to me! yea im mad at him. i got him a cheap prez for valentines day because i dont want to waist money if he is just going to be a jerk! and freaking this shit is driving me up the wall!!! and i think he is starting to get a cold sore! like wtf!!!!! who's bed has his boots been under!?! im getting pissed and i might be breaking up with him soon.....im not playing anyones games....i will kick someones ass. but lets hope it does not have to come to that...

sadness

i have never seen him mad. the look on his face just made me cry thruout the rest of 7th peiod...i felt horible.....im so sorry for hurting your feelings Ty. i never lied to you and i never want to hurt you. this is my public apology. i never want anything to do with Astn again but he keeps comeing around. please Ty, you mean so much more to me. i actualy care about you. and no readers this is not an i cheated thing. this is hurting a dear friend by hangeing out with a very bad person. i never want to hurt you againg Ty...im sorry.

regrets

alright. so there is this guy that i used to go out with but we broke up.  i dumped him and to this day i cant recall why...i do love him so very much...i have regretted it since the day i did it. lets call him A. and there will be a reaperence from an enemy...Lnz...she used to be one of my best friends...but she decided that she wanted to have a baby with my ex boyfriend...not A. but M...look back you can hear his story... but so we have not been close in a wile. so at a school football game i saw A. so manny emotions had run through my head at the moment i saw him....we had a sort of a connected and just like old times he looked at me in the eyes and i just wanted to kiss him so badly...but i could not...i didnt know how he felt...regrets are the worst...now he is with Lnz and im crushed..she knows how i feel and i just cant help but feel like i am the worst person ever...i will never forget what i did but i will have to move on...some say thats impossible others say just do what you want. but i dont want to be black carded as that kind of girl. im not like Lnz...but i do love A and whenever i see him my heart breaks a little more... my mother is no help on this. she thinks that because he is a year and a half older it is grose...she dated a guy 4 years older than her...took him to prom and had babbys with him. yea theat guy is my dad...but whatev she is a hipocrit she always has been...but yea this was a sad one insted of a mad one...it helps to vent like this...

Carrie Underwood - Just A Dream

this video made me cry so badly. its so sad but realistic. this kinda stuff happens all the time...

wow

ok so alot of stuff goes on at my school. i found out that my friend is prego wit my ex boyfriends baby. they havve only been going out for a week. he keeps leaveing her and playing her like a freaken yoyoo. she is going to marry him wich is sttupid. i dont care for him i just want her to not screw up her life. and karina keeps telling her to do watever. she doesnt even care.well i do. she is going to be running away with him today. i told her not to. i told her alabout expensis and crap. i really hope she makes the right choice. she does not need to ruin everything before she even becomes an adult.

WTF!!!!!

ok so the guy micheal has decided that he feels bad and is going back out wit linz who yes was L and now weee everyone is happy!!!!! wile i almost jumped out of a fucking tree!!!!! he is back with her after telling me that he loves me and wants no one but me. so im like pissed. we are no longer friends on facebook and we will never talk ever again im done with his games.

freinds?

ok so i have a friend enimy. she was realy cool and all. till i started dateing this guy lets call him M. and well my "friend" lets cal her L. was getting into him. so she starts telling him shit like "she wants to break up with u, she is into someone else" but i never was. so i get dumped and we where together for a very long time. and they go out for not even a whole week and like i tell M that i still love him and so he dumps L. but he wants to be singel. he says that he has never felt this way about any other girl but me. so i think maby i will get back with him...MABY. so im just hangen we talk and all that. he calles me babe i call him hun. yada yada yada. and they are all hangen out one day. M,L,C,B,and,K.L starts being a bitch to M and so he just leaves cuz he hates drama...who dont..and well he cals me to say what happened so i txt L and say "maby u should be a little nicer" and i get txt saying u made her cry u stupid bitch. and all that stuff. so im like wtf?!? in dont even understand. aperently im the atacker and L is the victem. i never set out to hurt anyone. she used to be my best friend at school but she is just an over dramatic bitch.and so i decided not to go out wit M again. wich sux cuz i realy like him but i hate to hurt people. so yea.and well im not going out with him and he is not wanting to have friends any more. wich sux. oh well. now im sad and crying. i kinda feel like juliet though.haha and M would be my romeo:) well yea. thats what happened today. ill blog ya latter!