sadness

i have never seen him mad. the look on his face just made me cry thruout the rest of 7th peiod...i felt horible.....im so sorry for hurting your feelings Ty. i never lied to you and i never want to hurt you. this is my public apology. i never want anything to do with Astn again but he keeps comeing around. please Ty, you mean so much more to me. i actualy care about you. and no readers this is not an i cheated thing. this is hurting a dear friend by hangeing out with a very bad person. i never want to hurt you againg Ty...im sorry.

regrets

alright. so there is this guy that i used to go out with but we broke up.  i dumped him and to this day i cant recall why...i do love him so very much...i have regretted it since the day i did it. lets call him A. and there will be a reaperence from an enemy...Lnz...she used to be one of my best friends...but she decided that she wanted to have a baby with my ex boyfriend...not A. but M...look back you can hear his story... but so we have not been close in a wile. so at a school football game i saw A. so manny emotions had run through my head at the moment i saw him....we had a sort of a connected and just like old times he looked at me in the eyes and i just wanted to kiss him so badly...but i could not...i didnt know how he felt...regrets are the worst...now he is with Lnz and im crushed..she knows how i feel and i just cant help but feel like i am the worst person ever...i will never forget what i did but i will have to move on...some say thats impossible others say just do what you want. but i dont want to be black carded as that kind of girl. im not like Lnz...but i do love A and whenever i see him my heart breaks a little more... my mother is no help on this. she thinks that because he is a year and a half older it is grose...she dated a guy 4 years older than her...took him to prom and had babbys with him. yea theat guy is my dad...but whatev she is a hipocrit she always has been...but yea this was a sad one insted of a mad one...it helps to vent like this...

Carrie Underwood - Just A Dream

this video made me cry so badly. its so sad but realistic. this kinda stuff happens all the time...

wow

ok so alot of stuff goes on at my school. i found out that my friend is prego wit my ex boyfriends baby. they havve only been going out for a week. he keeps leaveing her and playing her like a freaken yoyoo. she is going to marry him wich is sttupid. i dont care for him i just want her to not screw up her life. and karina keeps telling her to do watever. she doesnt even care.well i do. she is going to be running away with him today. i told her not to. i told her alabout expensis and crap. i really hope she makes the right choice. she does not need to ruin everything before she even becomes an adult.

WTF!!!!!

ok so the guy micheal has decided that he feels bad and is going back out wit linz who yes was L and now weee everyone is happy!!!!! wile i almost jumped out of a fucking tree!!!!! he is back with her after telling me that he loves me and wants no one but me. so im like pissed. we are no longer friends on facebook and we will never talk ever again im done with his games.

freinds?

ok so i have a friend enimy. she was realy cool and all. till i started dateing this guy lets call him M. and well my "friend" lets cal her L. was getting into him. so she starts telling him shit like "she wants to break up with u, she is into someone else" but i never was. so i get dumped and we where together for a very long time. and they go out for not even a whole week and like i tell M that i still love him and so he dumps L. but he wants to be singel. he says that he has never felt this way about any other girl but me. so i think maby i will get back with him...MABY. so im just hangen we talk and all that. he calles me babe i call him hun. yada yada yada. and they are all hangen out one day. M,L,C,B,and,K.L starts being a bitch to M and so he just leaves cuz he hates drama...who dont..and well he cals me to say what happened so i txt L and say "maby u should be a little nicer" and i get txt saying u made her cry u stupid bitch. and all that stuff. so im like wtf?!? in dont even understand. aperently im the atacker and L is the victem. i never set out to hurt anyone. she used to be my best friend at school but she is just an over dramatic bitch.and so i decided not to go out wit M again. wich sux cuz i realy like him but i hate to hurt people. so yea.and well im not going out with him and he is not wanting to have friends any more. wich sux. oh well. now im sad and crying. i kinda feel like juliet though.haha and M would be my romeo:) well yea. thats what happened today. ill blog ya latter!

Guys...

ok so i had this boyfriend. he is a cutei and i realy realy like him. but one day he dumps me cuz he said he needed to work on his school work to get back into theschool. he is in 2nd chance. ok so im like ok whatev. but then i find out that he started going out wit my best friend linz. but thats not all! he wa also going pout wit his best friends lil sis. and he was trying to ask out his gilfriend!!! i know what a creep!!! but when my bff found out she didnt dump him!!! so im like wtf!!! and notthing. i tell her all about my feelings for him still. she doesnt have anything to say. so i think. maby i cant move on cuz i need him to know not her. so i tell him everything and badaboom he dumps her cuz he wants me back! im all like SWEEEEET!!!! but he wants time to be singel before we re hook up. idk how to break it to my momz. she dont really like him any more. "once a cheeter always a cheeter" she says that all the time...ok once...but still!!!so idk if i even should hook up withim again. if ur reading this think u could give alittle advice...maby...anything helps.

random thoughts

ok i have random thoughts like all the time. why? idk. this stuff just happens. like how i will think... "if i had a romote that could pause time i would do so many things...REVENGE!!!...or just random stuff" these thoughts will show up when i least expect them. and even when i dont want them. i hate it but what can i do? idk how to controll them. they just happen.when i read i have to reread the same sentence like 20 times before i can under stand it. all because my randome thoughts will just pop up outta no where. like right now im in math as i write this and im thinking of ninjas fighting jeteyes!!! i know! who do you think will win this fight? my $$$ is on the jeteyes...that has nothing to do with the subject. see now you are all haveing randome thoughts about jeteyes and ninjas fighting! and no not the yelling and calling names fighting i mean an all out battel of life and death! "if there is anything konfoo movies have tought me its that my shame is my bigest punishment...and if you can fly than you will win the fight!" this is off of my fave show gorge lopez!!! haha :) well now that we got onto and off of the topic i think i better go now. had fun though!!! BYE!!!!!!!

boyfriends

have you ever thought that when people are standing around you they are just watching you or just listening in on you? that kinda stuff pisses me off. i also hate how my boyfriend just loves to find new ways to piss me off. like how he talks to his ex and how he just asumes how i would react to stupid stuff that i dont even care about. but there are times when he makes me happy and just makes me feel all giddy inside. i love him but he is pretty crazy.

high school drama!

wow high school drama is just so anoying! when will people learn that when you dump a friend because you think they are a ho than just pic them back up because they are "cool" its not worth it. this girl i know lets call her K didnt want to be friends with this other person lets call her T. so T dont come around us any more but now K started being her friend again when asked she said that she didnt know why she was friendsa with her again. so whatev we all just ignored her. than out of nowhere T starts being the big B word. that dont fly. i told her to stop but no. she tryed to pick a fight with my other friend and is trying to get me expelled for shtuff i didnt even do! T got K to lie to the vp and say that i smaked her across the face and that  i have been sending her thretaning txts. but i dont even have her # so its all a big mess. she got my bf kicked off school campus and is ruining my high school experience!!! why dont she just leave me alone? ill tell you why! cuz she is a jr and all the jrs hate her so she hangs with the fresh cuz we are just getting out of middle so yea we will bring a little drama but thats what she wants! she is a Drama seeker!!!!  look out for her types. they snitch lie and dont give a flying monky but for there so called "friends".